I had what I consider to be my best week of my life so far with Shannon 2 weeks ago. It was ace. I had a great time, we got along like peas and carrots as Forest Gump would like to say. I had to admit I was a little unsure when she started trying to bite me a couple of times but it was all good. I'll never forget the last night I was there. We had a chocolate fountain going and me, Shan and her mum were talking about her Ex and eating chocolate dipped marshmallows. We talked about ghosts and life and shit and it was good. We had a laugh and it was a shame I had to come back home, I'd stay there forever if I could.

It's a real contrast. This time 2 weeks ago I was sitting with Shan probably chatting and laughing and telling Eric to piss off (inside joke). Right now it's about 2 hours after another life scarring event :( I wish I was back at Shannon's. I really do. Her mum upset is nothing compared with what I have to deal with.

I'm going to take Blade376's (great guy, here and on youtube) advice from his latest video and try to write a little at least each day. I've got a fair bit to talk about today.

I got up late first thing so I didn't have time to have any breakfast which was the most annoying part, I was almost late for school.

I then got shitted in maths because my homework wasn't as good as it should have been, that was hardly my fault! She's giving us A* level work when I'm just happy to get a B.

Then in the lesson before dinner after suffering all day without food, we get kept behind because people were talking and I didn't get my dinner for about 20 minutes. When I DID finally get it my friend (singular) had abandoned me so I was forced to sit with people I didn't know and who obviously didn't want me there. Thats the problem. I'm not hated, people would just rather not be around me and they want me to know that.

So generally not a good day. I was feeling a little better after dinner though and half an hour of blasting out tunes on my iPod on my way home did me good. I spent a few hours with my mate Rhys which was pretty fun then when I get back on here once he's gone the laptop ballses up which is most annoying. I finally have the internet on here *canned cheer* and I'm really happy about that but this laptop is just slow sometimes and it really bugs me because I loose things... I almost lost 10 minutes of footage that I'd managed to cut down and edit from 20. I've been spending a lot of time on YouTube lately *coughRacheyaV2cough* with my new camera and... yeah...

I'm not feeling the best today, maybe I will tomorrow...

I'm pretty sure I'm invisible on SS now. Since I've been dunced nobody seems to recognise me. When they do realise that the skanky n00b with the dunce hat is REALLY me, the friend that they've talked to and cared about for 2 years, they just want to know why I'm dunced. When I half tell them how me and Shan fucked up, they go off and stop talking to me anymore. I've not had ONE conversation on SS since I got dunced, just a normal conversation with spam and randomness chat. It's fucked up really, then again I suppose I'm leaning what it's like to be an outcasts in the place where 'everybody is welcome'. 

Fuck.

This is just pissing me off so much, there has NEVER been anywhere in cyber space that I've not been able to go. Even if there were I would find my way through it, but I can't. Racheya's been squibbed and the Hogwarts RP is just... gone to me. I don't even fucking care really, I KNOW that if I was able to go there I probably wouldn't. It's just because I can't have it, I want it. URGH!

This is just crap. I'm a reject in a site basically full of HP freaks. How the fuck does that work? It's just more proof that I'm a looser. Fucking the freak of the freaks. Fuck. ARGH!!! *spontaneously combusts*

It was my 2 year anniversary on signing up for SS last sunday. 12th August to be exact. I guess I'm lucky to make it so long after everything of late. I don't really think that I care much for Snitchseeker any more. I have about 13,000 posts on the forum after 2 years. I have around 6,000 posts on Of Age Wizards after 5 months. SS is just not for me anymore. I knew that before me and Shan fucked up with the suicide spam. We didn't know that we'd be killing our main accounts rather than the insignificant multiple account. I'm not going to take that risk again though, oh no. I'm not letting anybody else get fucked over by SS. Not on my watch. That makes the think, where IS my watch anyway. I've not seen it since saturday...

Anyway, unlike my 1 year anniversary on SS. My 2 year one was rather uneventful and crappy, hell I didn't even waste my time making a siggy saying "Two terrible years on SS" or "Two years on SS... only just." I'm just fucking out of the loop now and I'm not going to piss around trying to get back in. Nobody misses me there and I miss nobody so no harm done eh? Happy crappy aniversary.

~A~

A HUGE batch of textures, I was inspired ^_^


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